okay, maybe i will put it up on facebook when the timing is right. i can't believe i'm even trying to protect the person's identity. a girl from my french class....said hi to me, but with a catch....
1. disclaimer: i never revealed the identity of that girl. if her identity is exposed, too bad, she is too "popular" for making jokes like this....
2. she is a horrendous girl....good facade, well-played. trying to gain approval of your friends like this....
*snorts* how absolutely disgusting and revolting.
it went like:"hi retard"....
fuck u seriously. or maybe i heard her wrongly, thats why i do not reveal her identity, unlike her, who shamed and humiliated me in front of her friends....saying:"so mean".... and laughing......
when i was just merely walking past some classroom blocks....and happened to see her.....
this is underhanded and uncalled for.
okay, i did the grp project with her.....
okay, i am bad. but i'm very sure, for speaking-based assignments, its based on the individual.
otherwise they would all slap people with the same grade.
but....we are unlikely to be working together again.
plus.....its not like.....the contributions by each team member is unclear.
it is very clear. cause' if u saw us speaking, and our faces.....its unlike the scenario whereby....u do one grp project and people can say whatever they like, and its harder to verify who did what.
but when u speak....about this part, and bla bla bla....its impossible for people to frame u.
one girl did the editing and stuff.
but i did the subsequent editing as i wanted to add stuff. plus i burned the file into the CD.
she did her part. adequate? i think so.
but she has no right to call me a retard.....
cause' i contributed sufficiently already....
i mean, if she does it again,i think i would totally go berserk.
emotional damages, i could sue for that, you know?
i think, whatever is in the past, is in the past, but as a human being, u expect things to change.
some other people have been called a retard as well....
by their peers.
this is poly life. sorry. this is the fcking brutal truth.
i have been mean in the past, and karma has hit me hard.
okay, i have been mean to one guy.
introverted, nice, and kind of submissive.....
i chatted him up, and it was fine....however, he would always tell me that he was answering his boss phone call or something....always....being pestered by me....he does not have to answer to me, yet he keeps telling me stuff when i pester him....but yet, i want to know the answer...and i wonder why does he bother to answer to me lol....
anyway, i found him too handsome, and i said that he has to delete me....
things were fine....
it was fine....until, the clan leader of the clan started quarrelling with me.....and out of anger, i deleted him and another clannie.....on social media....
and then, i decided to leave the clan(i was previously kicked from the clan, due to a miscommunication)....
but i would occasionally visit the clan....and messages between me and that person, got more and more sparse...cause' that person would make up some excuse.....
okay, i did say that he is skinny.....but still, give him a few years, and i think....he will put on weight...due to the metabolism slowing down....
okay, so in general, i'm not on talking terms with him anymore....
maybe i played too many mind-games.
i would tease him.....saying that he makes people lose their train of thoughts....
then, i would say....that i don't like introverted guys....
but i know that introverted people can be interesting and cool.
and my general hatred for introversion stemmed from a few factors:
1. being a pushover....and being unable to stand up for myself
2. not having much fun in life
so, i mentioned, that i stopped being as introverted as before. yes, in school, i can be very introverted.
but in workplaces, or events, or at parties, i could warm up to people very easily.
and also, i'm an attention-seeker. i like attention from guys...cause' i wasn't popular in school.
back to the topic......
on why i don't think that i am that mean, to deserve this bullshit....
1. even if the person does nothing during grp projects, i will give him the full grade, provided he does not frame me. cause' i don't want to fail a person or anything..
2. i try to help out if i can....if i have the ans for the ppt slides, or if i feel i can help out with some of the easier and general modules. not the finance stuff please...>< general business, communications....or IT writeups....
and i do this, cause' there were people who tried to help me out too. like good grp members, and caring people.
3. I DO NOT CRITICISE a person's looks, intelligence or parts of their figure which cannot be changed, unless the person pisses me off very badly.
ie. losing or gaining weight, can be done. but flat chested or small dick? i don't tease or criticise people like that.
even if a person really looks ugly, stupid or the person does not have a good figure(not due to needing to gain or lose weight), i would never say it as a friend,even if its my honest opinion, and even if i put it in a nice way.
i only criticize traits which can be changed.....very easily.
side note: idk if i should continue taking french. maybe i will never migrate...cause' i can't get along with people.(u may say....oh, see, u chose not to take a levels, and now, u are giving up on french? well...don't use this argument with me. cause' u would say:"at least u never took the horrendous a levels, or u would say that i am lucky to go to poly, if i complain abt poly.
yea, lucky? to have a chance to go to poly. yea. but i don't know, with emotional damage and other problems that i have encountered, i don't know if i will actually end up worse than before. u can't blame people for being like the fictional peter houghton....cause' they just wanted revenge. for me, i won't do anything unlawful. i have too much respect for the law. but should i ever join the law profession, i have no qualms about representing people who took revenge.)
look, some people say i'm a bad kid, but i never directed my anger at people, unless they provoke me, or what they did was unfair to me, or perceived to be so....i stood up for myself.
i like to think that i'm some kind of tough punk kid. cause' people can offer to help u with homework, but i don't think they would stand up for you, lest they bear the wrath of the parties involved.
tl;dr: this girl ruined my reputation.....what do i mean by that?
U are someone who i do not really know. because, i barely know u. i don't hang out with u, and u are only in one class with me, and u never took the effort to know me.
and yea, u conveniently branded me as a retard.
and even if i am one, its up to the psychiatrists to diagnose it.
even if i am one, its for me to say it.
even if i am one, people who offered help to me, in terms of dancing, or trying to help with homework..(there were a few nice girls who had grp study sessions)..or people who actually made up for my inadequacies in group work...but not her. i wrote my own script, got my internet friend to help me.
so my internet friend takes the credit. plus, in terms of recording, she didn't help me record it.
another member helped me with the software editing. but i did chip in for additional editing, also, i handed in the CD.
i don't know if she contributed to the editing...
but please, what are your grounds for calling me a retard?
and you laughed with your friends.....omg. you stooped so low.
people who i barely know, and they barely know me, and they are labelling me as one.
nice call.
even when u meet people with true mental deficiency, diagnosed or otherwise, its just not right.
cause' i don't do that.
you are mean and repulsive, just like your friends.
u gave me "FAME"...not the kind that i like...........................
and indirectly, u caused damage to my reputation.
