maybe the range of illnesses that i may actually have is greater than those of the girl who i read abt.....in teens magazine.
and also other stories.
when i was in sec3, i guess i was feeling a tad depressed. maybe suicidal already.
but i don't dare to reveal the true extent of it.
like the fact that i could sleep for 3 hours only. or i could sleep for 14 hours.
just to escape.
dancing at a club is a way to escape too.
or when i really feel like dying.
i mean, 90 bucks for an emergency. i can't pay that money. my parents will kill me.
like, whether the fact that people are talking bad abt me, is 100% true, or 50% true.
i will always go with 50% sure, or maybe 70% sure at most.
i can't say that its 100%, even if its true.
it would mean that im beyond hope.
on the bright side, there are other ccas that i could join.
all is not lost.

note to self: blog, forum 1, forum 2