really high on the fix it mentality

if something's broken, i want it fixed.
if a laptop is spoilt, it shld be fixed.
i really like analytical and logical people.
what frustrates me is: when a problem cannot be fixed this way.
and the emotional comfort part? u need loads of it.
because the problem still isn't solved.
i'm abnormal, i'm weird. because i disliked my own name, and i was very vain and i didn't like wearing spectacles, and i was curious abt dicks at the age of 4.
maybe i have a different brain, or incredible self awareness.
really, enough is enough.
being ridiculous and saying that my father gave me meds(in primary 1)
and they called me crazy....wtf.>< how untrue was that?
and i think my mum said that  i  have a hole in my heart....but it wasn't fixed.
i have severe myopia, i could go blind anytime.
i have acute sinusitis, and i lay in bed and i have muscle cramps, my face hurts, and my head is woozy and i have dizzy spells.
i have scoliosis, and they said it was worsening, and it scared the shit out of me.
i used to have asthma.
and they said i may have flat feet.
the teacher speculated that i could be autistic.
and at 11 years old, i wrote an essay abt suicide.....
and i did a lot of silly things.
i felt like a grown up at 11 years old, yet i'm not a fast learner.
i read jodi picoult books at 13 yrs old.